and im loving every minute of it. Today at least. Yesterday was a little more difficult.
Yesterday i was discharged form the hospital after lunch, i was so happy to be going home. There really is something magic about being in your own surroundings, it can make you feel a thousand ties better in an instant, and it did.
I wasnt prepared though, for how shell shocked i would feel when i got home. It was like i was in a daze. Thank god for my wonderful husband who took care of Sophia for me so I could just relax. I think yesterday was when all the weekends events really sank in. Its so scary to think how close we came to losing Vanessa, I cant imagine. I just cant.
After spending a night in my own bed under the same roof as Sophia and Donald though, i feel a lot better today. Donald had to go to work this morning and so I came over to my moms so that she could take care of us. Its not my house but its still home and i can feel my spirits starting to come around to the positive side a little bit more.
Tonight we go and see our midwives, im so happy that we get to continue seeing them. My midwife J. has been a huge source of support through all of this, and I am looking forward to having her as a part of this pregnancy and hopefully the birth. I have so many questions for them, though i doubt there are many answers at this point, we just have to wait and see. I have another ultrasound booked for Friday so have a few more answers then.
I want to apologise if my writing has been all over the place in the last few days, i expect it will continue to be for a while, its how my head feels right now, all over the place. I will keep everyone updated as I learn.